The Good, The Bad and The Ugly

The Good:
I made the team! I made the team! I made the team! As always making
everyone including myself sweat. Even better for me, the constant
wondering of what direction my life is headed has been delayed...at
least for another couple months.
The sub11 fund is growing as I recorded to sub11 performances the
weekend. Still collecting the funds for a good cause but probably going
to change the direction of my giving. Definitely welcome any suggestions
on how best to use the sub11 fund.

The Bad:
I didn't make it in the 200m.
God had quite a sense of humor in teaching us life's lessons....

The Ugly:
Just recently when speaking at Myron Rolle's Leadership Academy I
touched on the importance of owning up to your mistakes. It is a poor
reflection on your character not to acknowledge your wrong doings and
remorse along with lessons learned when you mess up. It shows your
human. Pretending like it didn't happen means either your pride is
bigger than your character or your not remorseful. With that I am going
to do a little practicing what I preach.

I got beside myself in the 200m. God seemed to be shining on me
endlessly so I stopped being rational and got on the line thinking I had
it in the bag. It didn't matter that the I couldn't see my 3 fiercest
competitors because they were behind me, I had lane 4 the premiere
lane,the fastest time in the world, and I felt great so surely I was
about to PR and make the team maybe even win. Instead I embarrassed the
great lane 4 and myself.

I have received numerous text and calls from those that care about me me
saying "What happened?! You just stopped running" when I offer no
reasonable explanation they proceed to LET ME HAVE IT! My Coach however
didn't say anything but her face said it all. There is no feeling like
knowing you have let someone down when you were very capable of doing
just what they asked of you. Losing is a apart of life but quitting is
not an option. I owe Coach Deem an apology along with fans, family and
friends. Thank goodness for a support group that is all about my growth
and made sure that I know I failed to handle my business and that it
should NOT happen again.
There is a good chance I may have been able compete at worlds had I run
thru the line.What I wouldn't give to turn back the hands of time but,
with time comes wisdom. About 8 international teams and still
learning...